Far wiser to descend the mountian than fall from it

Those are words from Max Lucado's devo. He was talking about climbing too high for our own good. Pride. Has an ugly face.
Many ways I got a lot of pride. Even to prideful to let God help me. A lot of the time I feel like my soul is in mourning. Led myself astray and can't find the way back. I'm trying and trying.
I jus don't know how or where I'm lost.
It's frustrating to a point where sometimes I want to give up. But my conscienceness grips me so hard, that I don't give up. And I won't give up.
Trust is simple, but so hard.
Been learning more about what humility is. Still don't understand it at the same time. I'm trying hard to be humble. Trying so hard to be "good".
Think there's a key word in there, "trying", jus trying too hard.
I feel tired. Spiritually. Energy is kicking at 1.
Well, keep me in your prayers.

Who should paint you

"Open and raw, you would let your true self

show for your portrait.And even if your painting turned out a bit dark,

it would be honest."

So I was taking a quiz, I was curious as to, if I ever got a portrait painting of myself, who should be the one to paint me.
Turns out it is M.C. Escher.
Who is he? I'll look up this dude.
K found him, here's the speel...

Maurits Cornelis Escher (1898-1972) is one of the world's most famous graphic artists. He is most famous for his so-called impossible structures, such as Ascending and Descending, Relativity, his Transformation Prints, etc etc. But he also made some wonderful, more realistic work during the time he lived and traveled in Italy.

Some of Escher's paintings:

Hmph, cool. I love black and white photography and paintings.

A peak at my Christmas Holiday so far...

This crazy lil girl is...

my adorable god-daughter JAEL!

Jael took 3 steps yesterday!

The mother of da babbah! Miss Hattie Tanis!

And guess who came out to Nemiah all the way from Victoria?

JESSIE! Jess quit her job so she could join us, we missed you Jess!

And here, Jael decided to get into the gift we gave her.

HA! Look at these shortys...

That's better:) *tweet tweet*

Here's the beautiful "gramma" with the babe. Lookin' hot Trace!

I tried to get Billy to carry the baby but.. Jael was intrigued with the reindeer.

The lively peop's at the par-tay..

Kung fu!

After we got food in our tummies, chill time...

Kaleena's got quite the voice:)

And finally, ending this picture story with a 'pow';)

Catch ya later, I'll see what I have for picture stories for the new year!

Children in church are funny...

I been tasting the real fruits of joy. Jus thinking of the fact that God knows me.

And I know Him.

That He loves me.

And I truely love Him.

Forever, I get to dwell with Him. Forever is a good long time.

The trials I know I face right now, this past Sunday crazyness at work for example, seem shortened and it's "sting" is not so unbearable...

And God is with me. That truth's joy never fails to lift me. My everyday here in Williams Lake God whispers to me "I'm here".

Freak, I love it so much.

And... 1000000000000% His, the Lord's, affection goes out to me, there's not a part in my life that He doesn't miss or ignore, but I'm in full complete focus to Him. Not sure focus is the right word..

A song jumped out at me today, one by Starfield, as I was washing the much-needed-a-wash floors. The words "misplaced affection" (referring to our affection being misplaced) and I started chewing... on how I've been "misplacing" my affections, turning my devotion/time/affection towards other things than God.

The past month I always been hearing "first to the Lord, then all else". And I found in me that, that's all I really want to do right now, devote my affection soley to God. I want to! It's an exciting feeling. I was contemplating that yesterday on my walk down to work (it was a gorgeous sunny day) and today as I was on the transit (another gorgeous sunny day).

And when those cloudy days come, I still want to push through and press into God. God tells me He's a God of all seasons, He's my strength in everything, He's not phased by the ever-changing winds of this desert-like world. Like the dunes in the deserts, shifting, swerving, moving always, that is this world, but God, He's the steady, firm, never-changing ROCK. His face, His presence, His truth, His promises, His life, His love, He stands firm and secure in absolutely everything.

And as His affection reaches out to me and holds me, He tells me so can my affection can reach out to Him. He gives me the Spirit that enables me. To follow Him, to live, to love.

And I love. Oh how I love.

"Seasons of the Soul"
Painter: Rasoulli
SiziKri, I am learning to trust you more. Everyday you find a way to make me fall in love with you. How merciful you are, Your hand extends out to me. I am in a season now where I'm understanding the need to have family, my close ones and the church family. I need help, I need prayers. I need to pray. Lord salt my conversations and in my time of need, help me to share my story of your love poured out in my life so that it will touch their hearts and see the good work you are doing in me.

Bestill me, calm me and hold me.

Amen.

Some ADORABLE pictures...

that I stole from Jackie's profile:)

The adorables, Jackie and baby sis Lucinda!!!

So cute I could eat her...

Awww!

That's it... I'm stealing the baby!

Brotha Trev and our cuz buddy Lashway!

Lashway is Jackie 'n Lucinda's bro.

Check this out...!

Our YOUTH ViDEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Click it*

I've yet to figure out

how to actually put video on here:)

But...

check it out anyway,

it's a sweet video with

my Beautiful people on it.

A Happy Birthday...

to YOYO!!!
How do you feel at 21 Yoyo?
I remember those years.
I was young.
I wasn't as wise as I am now. Welcome to years of 21, it's a lot of fun, you will like it... ha.


Here's a collection of items that remind me of you;)

~Dolphins

~Sails

~Elagent-ness

~Old Men (lol!))

~GOOFYness

~Cows (they even cowFU)

~Purses ~Earrings

~Your compassion towards people

~Laughter a.k.a. JOY

~Last, not least,

FLIPFLOPS galore!

:)Happy Birthday Yo:) Love ya!:D

ALSO, a Happy Birthday to my uncles

Nelson & Gerald:D

Also, there's another birthday to celebrate... my blog:) It's been a year since I've started this. Crazy.

"I watched Satan fall from heaven like a flash of lightning" Luke.10.18.

The power of God's reign is so manifest in Jesus' words and deeds that Satan's reign is self-destructing. Evil has no real power wherever the teachings of Jesus are heard and obeyed.

Let me fear no evil but let me fear to live apart from Your word and Your will.

From Wisdom of the Carpenter, Ron Miller. The book has some good stuff.

gahhh!...

i'm clinging on, hanging on, i'm a leech...
i don't have very long arms either, but still i try to keep hanging on to everything in my life. to have a handle on ALL things, balance everything, trying to give myself to everything and not just one thing.
that hit me today.
i'm getting tired. of stretching myself out. in really, ways i don't have to at all.
finding my center point... that sweet spot in my relationship with God, where I can always come back to, place of balance and security in Him, where I can keep dancing and not fall.

"Let there be no space in me

where you are not present,

no corner of my life

which you do not fill".