If you wanna listen...

Listen to thisss... I jus' found the song. Stroll down and find the song;) You'll have to have Real Player or Windows Media)

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"JARS of CLAY: The Eleventh Hour"

Trace the shape of my heart, till it becomes more familiar to your eyes. I've been lost without you, cold without your love. It's taken days and nights to make me realize.

Rescue me from hanging on this line. I won't give up on giving you the chance to blow my mind. Let the eleventh hour quickly pass me by. I'll find you when I think I'm out of time.

Take the place of my heart, till I become a stranger to my life. I've been down without you, wrong without your love. In time will I be what you're thinking of?

Rescue me from hanging on this line. I won't give up on giving you the chance to blow my mind. Let the eleventh hour quickly pass me by. I'll find you when I think I'm out of time.

I've been down without you, cold without your love. In time will I be what your thinking of?

Rescue me from hanging on this line. I won't give up on giving you the chance to blow my mind. Let the eleventh hour quickly pass me by. I'll find you when I think I'm out of time.

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It's not enough to just read the lyrics. The instruments, the vocals, the lyrics together... it's amazing. Really speaks to me. All of it, all the lyrics.

We're heading to Williams Lake... 5 in the morning! :S Got to get there by 8am. We can finally replace our shattered windshield.

About lunch time or around 1pm, I hope we have already headed out to Abbotsford. Yoyo 'n I will be at the Reunion (Lifeteams):)

Amanda, I can't wait to see youuuu! I miss you like crazy. There's much to tell. About how my journey's been.

It's about that time to sleep, so I'm goin to crash. When I awake... it will still be dark.

..... at least I get to see the sunrise.

Surprises are cool.

I just found out TODAY is my LAST day at work. Whoa! Crazy. I thought I had a few days yet.. I guess nooot. I had 65 hours left since my last cheque. Now I'm out.
Tomorrer I'm goin with April and Catlin to Tatlayoko! Fiddling around with the Editing Deck over there, wohoooo!
And tonight, if I can, I'll be quading around with Abo Binx and go to baseball. THIS is a GOOD day:)
This is sort of a before picture (of me)... Yoyo, Holly 'n I.
And this is now...

Your are SUPPOSED to see layers. LOL. Well okay, I'll get a better picture eventually. It's considerably shorter than it was before and very thin.

I like it:)

Denise is very good. If you need a haircut, go to Planet Hair in Williams Lake. Appointment only. Call her.

Okay, I'm crusing. It's past 4. I'm goin look for Darren. Pick on him.

Holy Spirit help me trust you in this Dance

We are not the healers, we are not the reconcilers, we are not the givers of life. We are sinful, broken, vulnerable people who need as much care as anyone we care for.
The mystery of ministry is that we have been chosen to make our own limited and very conditional love the gateway for the unlimited and unconditional love for God.
"In the Name of Jesus"
Henri J. M. Nouwen

Realized a few days ago, while I was at work, "my success" in life of faith is not about my technique, how much skill I have under my belt, but it's really all about...
the Holy Spirit.
It is the Spirit doing the work of salvation in the place,
not me.
Not me.
Not me.
Not me.
I listen, that's a pause in my dance with my Partner.
I know my Partner.
And He's the one who leads me to the next movement in our dance.
He leads me. He takes the lead. Not I.
I move, follow Him on the floor.
My floor, is Nemiah Valley.

And as of now... I am before my dance.
Have I just started? I don't know.
I am afraid to take my Partner's hand.
I think it's humiliation. What if I fall, what if I don't get it, there are better dancers than I, I'm not committed enough to this dance, I've messed up before.
I'm a perfectionist too afraid to go out on that floor.

How do I get rid of this fear?
People keep encouraging me to go out on that floor. They tug on me, even shove me out there. I keep away.
I dance the same routines I know. Slowly I know I'm getting restless and bored.
There's a conviction that I am to move on...

My teacher, my Partner is gentle, merciful, graceful and full of wisdom in this Dance...
still I don't want to dance?
I don't want to let my teacher and partner down.
I haven't gone to my dance lessons, my spending time with the teacher has become less and less. I want to get rid of this rebellious bug.
I lack understanding, I want more.
I lack the grace, I want more.
I've avoided the me God's made me to be for too long.
Getting bored with the routine of rebellion and bored with thinking I know a thing or 2 about this Dance of Salvation.
I want all that God has for me.
To learn this dance, be a good student and succeed in this Dance.

I really want to dance your dance God.
My Spirit is willing, my flesh is weak.
Holy Spirit counsel me. Give me the patience to learn this and the understanding to carry it out.