Africa

I want to go somewhere. Have my heart broken, be in a place where they don't have everything. A place where they have only their breath and barely beating heart. Will God use me there? Will He lead me to deeper place in His heart that even I cannot bear? A place too broken.
I want to get rid of the pride I have. My arrogance, ripped out of me.
My eyes opened to my own family across the world who are dying.

Will I be called for a lil while to the physically dying? Maybe than I'd see this is only a picture of how we look spiritually?
Where is our soul getting food? Where is it drawing upon water?
Do we just starve ourselves...

I find that when I'm in the midst of physical pain, Im at my worst. I hate everything. Do they feel that there? Even more maybe.. maybe all they see is hope.
Don't know.

And God.. when I am there, teach me to hold on to courage, love and hope, and not let go.